Fall leaves...
It seems like the days have blended together lately. I feel like one of those hamsters on the wheel, just running everywhere and not really getting anywhere fast. Stopping to "smell the flowers" is not something I've been doing much of these days, and I really neeeeed to chill out. Most of the things on the list of "important things" to do aren't really important at all. And if I'm not actually doing them, by brain is still so busy going and going...it won't shut off. It's maddening. I am constantly tired, and feel like the days just aren't long enough. Do I sound like a basket case or just like the mother of a preschooler? I worry alot, probably too much, about Zoe (any and everything). I go thru my days (not intentionally but doing it anyway) trying to get the "job" of motherhood mastered or perfected, knowing that is basically just not possible. Add in the roles of wife, friend, sister, daughter, and the other many hats we all wear in a day, and it feels slightly overwhelming. I might need to go to one of those retreat places where they pamper and massage you all day. Hmmmm!
BUT, by being around Zoe, she constantly reminds that life is precious! She has so much fun in her days, and she makes the most of every minute. She brings out the kid in me, and then I relax. It's not a massage but it's a start, and I need to stop and smile/laugh more often, lose the worry (frown) lines.
She's shown me that perseverance, patience and strength are some of the many qualities that are essential in life, as well as love, acceptance, and kindness to name a few more. I am thinking about all this I guess to remind myself of what's important and what's just absolutely not.
Zoe is the sunshine in my world, sometimes it seems like she's the one teaching me....so we teach each other. I am very grateful that I have Zoe as my daughter, she is a very special, smart, perceptive, creative, sensitive, funny little girl.
2 comments:
Try and smell the flowers at the same time Zoe does! That way you'll be sure not to miss a "moment," that can easily be filled by something non-important! We always hear people say "Enjoy every moment!" We try to do just that, but it seems that suddenly...our kids are turning 4!!! Where did the time go? How many flowers were there??? This is JUST life! Priorities change once you figure out what means more to you and what doesn't matter...
you should be very proud of zoe and the little person she is becoming. this is such a special time that we have them all to ourselves before they head off to school and the rest of the world. it went way too fast, and i'm trying to hold on to every second of it too. all we can do as moms is our best...... you can look at zoe and know that you have made a difference in her life and that she is who she is because of you. what else matters?!
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